Wednesday, February 2, 2011


well, awal kita ketemu.. aku ga pernah berpikir untuk suka sama kamu, apalagi jatuh cinta.. saat itu aku hanya berpikir bagaimana aku menjalani kehidupan yang sama sekali baru bagiku, tanpa ada seorang pun untuk bergantung, hanya aku seorang diri..

hari-hari pertama yang sulit pun harus aku hadapi akhirnya.. sahabat-sahabatku mulai menemukan "tempatnya", sedangkan aku? ya, memang aku seorang yang sulit untuk beradaptasi.. namun pada saat-saat sulit itu kau hadir dalam hidupku dan mencoba untuk memberiku semangat walaupun hanya dengan sms-sms singkat dengan menanyakan kabarku.. saat itu pun tak terbersit sedikitpun dalam benakku kalau kau akan mempunyai tempat khusus di hatiku..

seiring berjalannya waktu, kita semakin sering mengobrol lewat jejaring2 sosial maupun sms, bahkan ada kalanya kita bertemu di suatu tempat hanya untuk mengobrol.. mulai ada perasaan-perasaan aneh yang timbul dalam diriku, entah hanya pemikiran semata ataupun memang itu yang aku rasakan, tapi setiap harinya aku menunggu kamu untuk menyapaku, saat kau menyapaku rasanya begitu menyenangkan, walau hanya dengan kata-kata singkat..

hari-hari yang kujalani menjadi semakin berat dan aku mulai merasa tak sanggup menjalaninya, aku pun mulai membuat keputusan-keputusan sesaat yang mungkin orang banyak katakan aneh, tapi kau selalu mendukungku dengan semua keputusan itu.. kaulah yang hadir di masa-masa kelam itu.. sahabatku? aku pikir mereka terlalu sibuk dengan kehidupan baru mereka..

saat aku meninggalkan hari-hari kelam itu, ternyata masih ada komunitas yang mau menerimaku, dan ternyata? kau juga bagian dari komunitas itu.. entah itu suatu yang di sengaja atau suatu kebetulan, tapi aku senang mengetahuinya.. aku merasa senang bahwa kita akan mempunyai banyak kegiatan yang dapat kita lakukan bersama.. perlahan timbullah perasaan lebih untuk kamu.. dan aku hanya bisa berharap kalau-kalau kau juga mempunyai perasaan yang sama..

waktu terus berjalan, kau pun sangat di sibukkan dengan kegiatan sehari-harimu, aku sangat mengerti kalau saat itu kau tak pernah lagi menyapaku sekedar untuk menanyakan "bagaimana harimu?".. namun ternyata setelah hari-hari yang sibuk itu lewat pun kau tak pernah menyapaku lagi, dan rasanya menghilang begitu saja dari hidupku.. entah mengapa aku merasakan kesepian dan rasa sakit yang sangat..

ternyata,, tanpa aku sadari rasa senang saat kau menyapaku,, rasa nyaman saat mengobrol bersamamu telah mengubah hatiku dan AKU JATUH CINTA PADAMU!

aku terlalu takut untuk mengakuinya langsung padamu, tapi aku rasa memang aku tak perlu mengatakan hal ini padamu, karena kau tak merasakan apa yang aku rasakan ini..

maaf kalau selama ini aku telah hadir dalam hidupmu, maaf kalau akhirnya kau harus mendengarkan semua ceritaku dan menenangkanku, maaf kalau aku sering mengganggumu dengan segala keisenganku.. dan akhirnyaa,,


Wednesday, October 6, 2010

99 facts bout BOYS. true?

1. Guys don’t actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.

2. Guys love flirts.

3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.

4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.

5. “Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.

6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.

8. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.

9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.

10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.

11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.

12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!

13. Guys cry!!!!!!!!

14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.

15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.

16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.

17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back.

18. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what?!..uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.

19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.

20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.

22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow.”

23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.

24. Guys hate gays!

25. Guys love their moms.

26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.

27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.

28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.

29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.

30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.

31. Like Eve, girls are guys EUR™ weaknesses.

32. Guys are very open about themselves.

33. It’s good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long.

34. No guy is bad when he is courting.

35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.

36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.

37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.

39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.

41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.

42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.

43. Guys virtually brag about anything.

44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.

45. Guys think too much.

46. Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.

47. Girls’ height doesn’t really matter to a guy but her weight does!

48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!

49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.

50. It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.

51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.

52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.

53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.

54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.

55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.

56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.

57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.

58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me.”

59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.

60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.

61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.

62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.

63. Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.

64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

65. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.

66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.

67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.

68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.

69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!

70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

71. A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.

72. Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.

73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.

74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.

75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.

76. Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.

77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.

78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.

79. Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.

80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they’ll realize they’re wrong.

81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.

82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.

83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.

84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.

85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.

86. When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed of you or he’s criticizing you.

87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.

88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.

89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.

90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!

92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.

93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.

94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.

95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.

96. Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!

97. If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.

98. Guys hate girls who overreact.
99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationship.

Friday, July 16, 2010

a Handfull of Sand

Well, this may be not the first post in my blog (I made another blog before, but it's kinda freak blog, so I made the new one and try to delete that blog.. can anyone tell me how to delete a blog?? please comment, thanks!)

Blog ini saya beri judul "a Handfull of Sand" yang artinya "Segenggam Pasir", mengapa? Setelah mengalami sekian banyak hal yang terjadi di hidup saya dan merenungkannya, saya berpikir kalau semua yang ada dan terjadi di dunia ini hanyalah seperti menggenggam segenggam pasir. Semakin erat kita menggenggam pasir tersebut, pasir itu akan keluar dari celah-celah kecil tangan kita, namun kalau kita biarkan pasir itu (tidak melepaskan ataupun menggenggamnya erat) pasir itu akan tetap berada di tangan kita (silahkan buktikan kalau tidak percaya xP ).

Banyak hal yang ada di dunia ini juga demikian adanya seperti pasir, semakin kita mempertahankannya dengan erat, kita akan semakin mudah kehilangan hal tersebut, namun kalau kita lebih "santai" kita akan dengan mudah mempertahankan hal tersebut. Namun bukan berarti kita tidak memerlukan perjuangan untuk mempertahankan hal-hal yang ada di hidup kita.

Tidak mudah?? Memang menulis dan membaca postingan ini tidak sama mudah dengan mempraktekannya. Banyak sekali tantangan-tantangan untuk menjaga hal-hal yang kita sukai atau sayangi sampai kita menjaganya TERLALU erat. Saya pun masih berusaha untuk menjadikan "a Handfull of Sand" sebagai motto hidup saya.

Di blog ini dan postingan-postingan saya berikutnya, saya akan mencoba untuk menceritakan hal-hal yang terjadi di sekitar saya, atau bahkan terjadi pada hidup saya dan nilai-nilai posiftif yang dapat saya ambil.

Semoga blog ini dapat berguna dan memberikan inspirasi bagi hidup anda. Enjoy reading! =)

j_vie 16.07.10